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Thursday, September 25, 2008

What's your rationale? update!!!

my vonnyl dear ask me to take out e tagboard, so i shall listen to her. hahax. ytd at first want go out wif ah ya de. hahax. but turned out she got something on, she ps me. sobz sobz. but nvm, she promised to go out wif me next week. so i shall look forward to it. =]

ytd, went out to pass sb sth, then after tat went to buy deodarant. hahax. no need buy perfume coz i noe its my present. lolz. oops. im so missing my contact lenses, but even if i get it now, i still wont be using it yet. lolz. coz i still have another pair. lolz. heex.

oh, today is thu le. heex. happy. happy. happy. lalalalalalax. tonight gonna work le. tired. tired. tired. someone is disturbing me while im blogging. lolz. covering my eyes, stop it ar. if not i angry le. lolz.

i seriously have started to crapping le leh. so i tink i shld stop blogging le. lolz.

take care dudes. i can start to blog more le. lolz.

♥its going on 8:36:00 AM

Monday, September 22, 2008

What's your rationale? forget

its been quite some time since i updated my blog.

as ive said, i gonna put down e past and start anew. but e thing is.. after i said tat then unintentionally found out things leh. so just take it tat i didnt fulfil my promises. but i'll try de, but keeping everything to myself. n forget them. hahax.

so these past few days. lot of things happened, but are all forgotten. reminders will not help too. coz i have short term memory. hahax. tats where my problems lie at. n thanks to all those concerns. heex. sincerely thanks. let this matter be forgotten. heex. coz i need all my frens. lolz.

ive found like im getting lazier each n everyday. coz ya, im lazy. lolz. like today, i stayed at home whole day. if u r wondering wat i did, hahax, i wake up, eat, watch tv, take a nap, watch tv, eat n now use com. hahax. i am starting to have e potential of being a pig. lolz. gonna kick away this habit. erm. but.. soon.. lolz.

so im looking to this fri. no room for guessing. coz its my bdae. lolz. ill be officially 17. lolz. n soon, ill 18, n soon, 21 n so on. lolz. is like ive think way too far. but i feel like im so old le. please, dun say abt my height ar. n my purpose of posting this up is obvious, lolz. so noe wat u have to do ar!!! lolz. =D kidding lah. later all my frens run away. but ah ya going 18 le. she so dun suit e image of 18 loh. to me, ah ya, u r forever a little girl. lolz. =x

so my holiday is going to end soon. sobz sobz. but at least still got like 2 or 3 weeks.hahax. i think so. n my bro actually qualify for diploma plus programme. jealous. since young, i used to score better than him. not fair. =(

anw, i gonna end my post le. take care everyone.

see all of u soon. n i gonna collect my contact lenses from vonnyl dear soon. heex.miss u. lolz.

♥its going on 7:30:00 PM

Thursday, September 18, 2008

What's your rationale? confused

its like im gonna say: wat e hell?!

i have no idea why things can spread to this way u noe? no idea how im linked. lolz. i just wan a peaceful life n my love life is like "deh". weird things happening. arent its my own business? n is like im still single loh. its weird to get me involved. sometimes i really wonder why must there be love n why must there be relationship? after a big round, e weaker ones will end up in the so called victim, u noe, just becoz they seemed to be e weaker ones. but most of e times, its partly their fault u noe?! its like ive became e baddie. but have u all ever think abt why all these are happening? i hate it. hate it. hate it.

how i wish i can go to a world without any troubles n worries. hey, if its not u, nth will happen. haiz. how i wish. how i wish. how i wish. but i noe no matter how i wish or wat i wish, it will not come true.

n i tink its totally e business btn u two, please for heaven sake, dun drag me in can? is like from outsiders' views, im e cause. but in fact, am i? i shall tell u, i am not. n im very confident abt it. im just very pissed off by these kinda rubbish. its irritating. haiz.

why is it so hard to just lead a peaceful life. n i really meant it. i just hate e feeling of being accused.

but i noe running away from it wont be a solution to solve the problem.

but i just dun wan ppl to get e wrong idea loh. dunno why will there be like a rumour going ard? or maybe is i too sensitive le n theres no such rumour? =/

i noe no matter wat, casper will be behind me de. thanks casper. i hope this thing wont be affecting us. coz i have no idea why im drag in to their prob. just tat i heard it from some ppl lah.
n casper, is like u r facing similar prob as them, so i tink maybe they get e wrong idea tat it is their matters bahx. hahax. ironical world. but isnt its bad? coz it will get innocent ppl in. stupid de. but hack care lah. i live happily can le.=] oh, i sound like so selfish. heex.

can someone just enlighten me? ur kindness will be greatly appreciated.=]

♥its going on 11:24:00 AM

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

What's your rationale? sadden

so im here to blog again. firstly im going to talk abt my results. bad bad bad. sadden sadden sadden. i got 2As, 1B n 1C+. sobz. i hate C, depressed. n my gpa is like 3.308. bad. haiz. gonna work hard for e next sem n next 2 yrs. sobz sobz sobz. i wan noe my econs n pacc de results. but im just lacking of confident.=(

so today is totally a bad day. my mood is totally spoilt right in e morning. firstly is by e agency guy, following is results, n lastly is by someone. is like, as ive said, today there will be lots of things happening, but i didnt expect them to turn out to be unpleasant stuffs. sobz. i shall HATE today. how i wish i close my eyes now, n today will be over. stressed!!!

to someone, hey, u noe how i feel ma? my mood is totally spoilt by u. u noe how much ur words hurt ppl? do u tink this is e right way to handle stuffs? i can see e shadows of him in u, u noe ma?! im angered by u. i hate myself, my tears. why shld they fall down n roll on my cheeks? i hate it man. i gonna learn e art of tolerance.

everyone have moodswing n all kind of rubbish, but why must u make ppl's life miserable n spoil others' mood? u noe, this is a sin okiez?! i hate it. hate it. hate it. im controlling not to scold vulgarities, coz i noe i dun wan to spoil others' mood. i will control de. u noe how fast ppl change?! they can be smiling to u e day before, n today, they can be scolding u. its aint my fault can? so now i noe its better to stay away from everything, n it will guarantee me a peaceful n safe life.

haiz, u noe how much i regretted on turning down e job offer ma? firstly is e agent thingy, secondly is e schedule thingy, n now, is u. haiz. sianz. why must god play a joke on me?! n it aint funny, at all. i shall learn to be fierce n xl n gl n all sorta rubbish in order to protect myself from being bullied bahx. then i shall really consider on taking up muay thai. in this way,i can be formidable. wahahax. but its impossible.

i dunno why im still holding on to it. is like maybe becoz of e flexibility bahx. but it is filled wif memories, mostly unpleasant ones. ppl are leaving. but why am i still holding on it? maybe its time i shall start finding alternatives le. since everything has changed. n since he n she are looking forward to my leaving bahx. hahax. ill learn to be strong n accept ur game, be my guests.

seriously, why must i always feeling regretted after i have made one decision. haiz. fate just like to play a prank on me, n i gonna tell u, its not funny.

i noe when im facing this kind of shitty stuffs tat time u wont be able to be by my side, but ill assure u tat ill be strong de. just tat i need to stop my tear glands for secreting tears.

do u noe how much i missed u each n everyday?

p.s: sorry if my post is a mood spoiler.

♥its going on 5:16:00 PM

What's your rationale? results

i got some of my results le, thru sms. but pacc n econs still haven get yet. i tink later i 1030am i will check. heex.

haiz. insomnia again. lolz. why i dun need to sleep alot? kept having insomnia, i seriously hate it man. but ive done all i can to sleep le, but think im troubled?! or watever sort.. which ended me up having insomnia. =( i slept at ard 3 plus or 4 bahx, guess wat, i woke up at 8am. omg. how can this be happening?! i wan my sleep back. please. =(

i shall post some photos here bahx.

firstly, are all my zhi lian photos. heex. these are all taken after my personal makeup lesson. lolz.

these are all taken wif vonnyl n wy.

hey, focus on wy, e one behind. lolz.

this was suppose to be me zhi lian-ing,

but think i aimed a bit off. lolz.

end of photo session of the makeup session.

i got a lot more photos to post, but this is still not e right time to post. heex.

erm. i dunno will someone read my post or not. but i just hope u noe tat, dun be too close to me, coz i dun wan to hurt u n i dun bear to hurt u when we annouce it. forgive me for not being close wif u, forgive me for putting on an act in front of u. forgive me for not going out wif u. maybe in this way, i will not feel so bad. coz this kind of things cannot be forced de. u shld respect his decision. n i dun bear to let him go too.

now i shall talk abt frens. do u all think tat friendships will last no matter how far apart we r? i felt tat we have drifted apart. maybe becoz we separated, now u have ur frens n i have mine too. i hate this can. but sometimes its of no choice.

so now, i shall not put too much feelings in friendships, coz it will hurt much when u r withdrawing it out. =( but i dun wan to lose hope in it too.

nvm, just take it as im crapping. lolz. coz i also dunno wat i wan say. hahax.

later gonna go work le. hahax. still got 4 mins to 1030am n i can check my results le. lolz. im like so impatient ritez? hahax. i still have not decided wat GEMs to take. still got time,so i can decided slowly.

i gonna end my post here. gonna post again soon.. hahax.

♥its going on 9:51:00 AM

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

What's your rationale? =]

blog blog blog, hahax. recently been busy?! lolz. shld say lazy bahx. so didnt come online n obviously didnt blog. so im not working at expo le. but me, debbie n jamie are pestered to pay e money. but we r under 18, so i tink e contract we signed are not valid bahx. i lazy to care. hope e matter will solve itself. lolz. tml a lotof things happening. lolz. firstly is i will get my pay, but not much. lolz. then tmlwill have new set lunch. so shld be will busy de. then tml most imptly, results will be out. oh. im nervous le. hahax. i dun even noe tml will get results after hx n germaine told me. lolz. so im like damn slow. hahax. i hope i'll score well. pray hard bahx.=]

*praying*

looking forward to 26sept, next fri. lolz. happy. happy. happy. hope as planned, our plan will proceed on smoothly.

to u: i will cherish e times wif u, n e moments we have lost, will retrive back de. nine mths plus. lolz. my days are not boring n lonely anymore, coz i have sth to look forward to. n i'll be strong de, coz i noe u will be behind me de. hahax. =]

so i tink i gonna go skates on fri le. lolz. cannot keep avoiding de mahx. hahax. i shall face u,but heard tat u r not there last fri, but who cares?! hahax. i wont give a damn on ur matters le, coz i have other things to care. =]

i shall live my life fully. n 2 yrs later, i hope our dreams will fulfil. lolz.

time will prove everything de.heex.

this post will only be understood by u. heex.

i gotta end my blog le. think will post more abt my results when im free bahx. hahax. hope will be a happy posts, to all my viewers, wish me good luck, n i also wish u all(those who are taking exams or will noe their results), good luck n all e best too. we shall all score wif flying colours.

take care, dudes. thanks for patronising my blog too. =]

♥its going on 9:27:00 PM

Thursday, September 11, 2008

What's your rationale? post

its time for blogging. lolz.=]

recently have been busy working n slacking, so these deprived me of the time of blogging. i shall talk abt this week. on mon, went to personal makeup lesson wif vonnyl and weiying. its damn useful. n also worth it. lolz. gonna upload the photos here. i mean when im free bahx. if not view it in my friendster. lolz. hahax. so congrats to weiying, finally u have eyebrows. lolz. she was contented wif it. kept raising n showing off her eyebrows. lolz.

for me n vonnyl, we r proud of my long eyelashes. lolz. this is wat makeup can do for u. lolz. =D so after tat i took a nap at home, n following by working loh. hahax. tue erm..im working full shift. nth much happen. lolz. wed, which is ytd, went to e training for cashier thingy, its like. i dun really like it. having e thought of travelling so far to work.(expo) sianz. n being e cashier is like tedious. sianz. in cafe cartel de cashier is so much better. regretted. hahax. but no choice. i need money, so need to work. =D

so today, theres another training. lolz. e happiest thing for today is after e training, will be going out wif DAC05 dudes. lolz. hope it will be damn fun. heex. im looking forward so much to fri, which means tml. but e condition to satisfy is tat there will not be any confinement. if not plans for fri, sat n sun will be spoilt. now i shall pray hard. *praying* =]

erm. i think i gonna update my blog again. gonna be late if i dun start preparing now. =]

♥its going on 11:27:00 AM

Thursday, September 4, 2008

What's your rationale? pictures 2

erm. i gonna upload more photos. took them dunno how long ago de. think ard 3 or 4 weeks. lolz. last time lazy to upload. heex.

(its all taken